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Oct. 22nd, 2001 01:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
missfrostI’m tremendously disappointed not to have been slated for arrogance yesterday. Or conceit or narcissism. Well not here anyway. Everyone who reads this must know me too well and can sense when I’m taking the mick, or doesn’t know me at all and thinks I really am that cold!
I am totally hopelessly bored. Which is terrible!! I go out probably five or six nights a week, although not to get plastered obviously.
But the fact remains, I am jaded, tired, spent, bored... how decadent is that? How pathetically shallow, and trite and superficial. (In fact I have just spotted glitter on my desk. It must have fallen out of my bag, but, *tut tut* glitter at work. I am trash!)
I suppose theoretically I should disappear or something, or do a back-to-nature type rediscovery. Maybe not. I am not a ‘nature’ type person. That involves going without hair straighteners and high heels doesn’t it? (Fickle, shallow, QED...)
Maybe the problem is that I’m not those things. I would just quite like some excitement. Something new and different and interesting. I think my Dad’s still in Greece or I would go home for a weekend. My Dad is the best person to get very drunk with and stay up all night talking about life. But being a hedonistic waster like myself he is larging it on a Greek island for the whole of October.
If Carine was a cartoon character she would be currently trailing hearts and flowers and miniature cupids everywhere. She is no longer multi-bloking, but has fallen into some 'love at first sight' thing which apparently there is a much better French expression for. (There are countless untranslateable French expressions that I'm expected to decipher!)
I suppose it would be nice to feel like that, but I can’t honestly ever see that I will ever feel like that about anyone, or anyone would feel that way about me, ever again. I’m seriously not bothered about that – I would just like someone I could stay up all night and talk about life with!
Hmm – now does that imply that I actually think everyone except me is shallow?! Hee hee.
Someone give me some excitement! Where’s all the fun gone out of life?
I was saving my last six days hols for Christmas. Maybe I’ll just cancel Christmas and bugger off somewhere for a week.
I am totally hopelessly bored. Which is terrible!! I go out probably five or six nights a week, although not to get plastered obviously.
But the fact remains, I am jaded, tired, spent, bored... how decadent is that? How pathetically shallow, and trite and superficial. (In fact I have just spotted glitter on my desk. It must have fallen out of my bag, but, *tut tut* glitter at work. I am trash!)
I suppose theoretically I should disappear or something, or do a back-to-nature type rediscovery. Maybe not. I am not a ‘nature’ type person. That involves going without hair straighteners and high heels doesn’t it? (Fickle, shallow, QED...)
Maybe the problem is that I’m not those things. I would just quite like some excitement. Something new and different and interesting. I think my Dad’s still in Greece or I would go home for a weekend. My Dad is the best person to get very drunk with and stay up all night talking about life. But being a hedonistic waster like myself he is larging it on a Greek island for the whole of October.
If Carine was a cartoon character she would be currently trailing hearts and flowers and miniature cupids everywhere. She is no longer multi-bloking, but has fallen into some 'love at first sight' thing which apparently there is a much better French expression for. (There are countless untranslateable French expressions that I'm expected to decipher!)
I suppose it would be nice to feel like that, but I can’t honestly ever see that I will ever feel like that about anyone, or anyone would feel that way about me, ever again. I’m seriously not bothered about that – I would just like someone I could stay up all night and talk about life with!
Hmm – now does that imply that I actually think everyone except me is shallow?! Hee hee.
Someone give me some excitement! Where’s all the fun gone out of life?
I was saving my last six days hols for Christmas. Maybe I’ll just cancel Christmas and bugger off somewhere for a week.
